Checking in

Nothing much to report. Weight is stable. I have been trying to talk myself into cutting more calories out of my diet, but I am just not there yet. I have been going to the gym 4 to 5 days a week so I am happy about that. Halloween is coming up very quickly followed by Thanksgiving then Christmas...what is a fat chick to do?

just a cha cha cha chugging along...

Weight 174.4

Awesome time for me lately. I have been going to the gym at work 4 times a week! Rockin it baby! I am thinking maybe I don't hate exercise like I thought that I did. I think what I didn't like was the act of going. It seems that it is easier for me to handle going at lunch more than before or after work. I feel that I am already trapped here so I might as well go. I have been doing the treadmill or eliptical, then hitting the bike (3 miles total). Then I do a circuit on the weight machines.

Not much going on really. I watched The Prince of Persia last night. It's a so so movie. We liked the new Hawaii five 0, I would recommend watching that on TV if you have a chance. Oh, we also watched the Biggest Looser. Eh, we will see if I keep up with it.

No exciting plans this weekend. We might go to the Ocktoberfest tonight, but I am not sure yet.

Have a safe and healthy eating/excercising weekend peeps!

A nice longggg weekend.

I am looking forward to the extended weekend. Nothing special planned yet. I am sure something fun will get worked in there. I have been thinking about riding my bike but my butt hurts for two days afterwards. My hubby says that is because we are old and our butts can't take it. Do I need a gel seat or will I get use to it?

Tuesday was my youngest daughter's 15th birthday. She wanted to go to Hooters for dinner. Holey macaroni, I gained 3 lbs from dinner and cake! Yikes, I couldn't believe it. My digestive system was out of wack for 2 days afterword. Eating a whole hamburger and fries was not worth it. I had my tiny little angel on my shoulder telling me to stop eating at 1/2 but the little devil won and I ate the whole thing. So as a result a three lb gain and feeling measurable for 2 days. Live and learn.

I have my workout clothes with me so that I can hit the gym at lunch today. Going forward my goal is to hit the gym everyday at lunch. We have a free gym to use here at work. I just have to walk across the street to use it. This will be in addition to doing Yoga at home. I have been wanting to try Yoga at a real Yoga place but I am nervous about going. I can do most of the simple poses but the more difficult ones I still can not do because I am either not strong enough yet or my fat gets in the way.

I hope everyone enjoys their long weekend. Take care and be safe!

Rubbing together of the thighs..

The thought occurred to me the other day that my thighs do not rub together anymore. I have also noticed that my "muffin top" is now smaller than my boobs, and I no longer have a "butt shelf". Weight~176.

The Fesival of the Little Hills weekend was great. Went both Friday and Saturday evenings. Visited the beer garden with family. Had a great time.

As I type this my tummy is a growling...I am trying to talk myself out of going to get sushi. Me so ungry...

I continue to make good food choices. I am doing Yoga 2 to 3 times a week. I have to stay motivated. My body changes are becoming extremely noticable to others. Focus on the prize! Everyone have a nice weekend.

178, is that a beautiful number?

I have been thinking about how what the magical scale says has such an influence over how I feel about myself. Why do I let it dictate how I feel about myself for the day? I wish I had the internal strength to let it go. If I could just go by how my clothes are feeling on my body. That should be enough. I let it have way to much power over me.

I have done the WII twice already this week! I now have earned the Bronze counter (my reward for clocking 10 hours on the WII). Thank you WII people for giving me this grand award...10 hours is pretty amazing for me anyway.



I made no bake granola bars on Friday and they are super yummy. You should give them a try. If you make them I would suggest using a smaller pan as these are pretty thin. Also, I didn't have chocolate chips or Craisons and they were still awesome. This recipe came from a blog but I can't remember which one. (I will give credit as soon as I find it)

Chewy, No-Bake Granola Bars
• 4 tablespoons (1/2 stick) unsalted butter
• 1/2 cup packed light brown sugar
• 1/4 cup honey
• 2-1/2 cups oatmeal or leftover granola
• 1/2 cup wheat germ, ground flax seeds and whole flax seeds (or substitute with more oatmeal, rice cereal nuts)
• 1/2 cup Crasins
• 1/2 cup chopped almonds
• 1/2 cup semisweet chocolate chips
1. In a medium saucepan, combine the brown sugar with the honey and butter. Bring the mixture to a boil over medium-high heat, then lower the heat to medium-low and simmer until the sugar dissolves, about 2 minutes. Remove the saucepan from the heat.
2. Add the remaining ingredients, except for the chocolate chips, to the saucepan and fold the ingredients to evenly coat with the sauce. Transfer the granola mixture to a 9-by-13-inch ungreased baking pan and press firmly to evenly fill. Gently press the chocolate chips onto the top of the granola. Let the granola mixture set in the fridge until firm, about 15 minutes, then cut into 2-1/4-by 3-inch bars.
3. Store in the fridge.

Have a great weekend. I will be off to the Festival of the Little Hills to celebrate. Take care and be safe!!

Just truckin along...

I have had no major weight changes one way or the other. So it's neither good nor bad. I have been struggling lately with sugar attacks. Regular food eating has been fine, which is probably why I have not seen any significant weight gains since my sugar over-load has taken root in my life. I need to quit cold turkey with that evil sugar. One bite leads to the next which leads to the next etc. I have hit the treadmill a couple of times in the last week. My mini goal for myself is to do 1 mile every day. I would like to make a 15 minute mile..

My youngest starts her first year of high school on Wednesday so looks like our days of the same old route are headed our way again. The last hoorah of summer is coming soon, my home town's good bye to the season is the Festival of the Little Hills the 3rd weekend in August. Beer drinking and shopping is a must. I haven't decided if I am going yet. Anyone have any end of the summer plans?

Time marches on...

My weight is ALMOST back to pre-vacation weight (179.8), which is excellent. I am now back to tracking my calories. My target is 1200 calories a day. I am only at day two but I am going to try my best to stick to it. We have been eating alot of chicken and grilled veggies. I made some low fat/calorie cupcakes that were EXCELLENT! Take a box cake mix any flavor ( I chose spice) add one cup of unsweetened apple sauce. Bake according to directions. I made a dozen cupcakes ( I threw the rest of the batter away) to take to my daughters to dinner. I topped the cc with a tiny bit of prepared cream cheese frosting, topped with pumpkin pie spice and cinnamon. When I bake this again, I will make the cake instead but just sprinkle with a little bit of powdered sugar.

I spent the majority of last weekend watching all of the episodes of The United States of Tara. That show is excellent! The premise is wierd, she (Tara) has multiple personalities. The writing is excellent. The cast is brillant. I highly recommend that you give it a try.

Saturday night I have to fight the crowd in downtown St. Louis so that I can drop my daughters off at the Lady Gaga concert. Oh boy, that will be a hoot...

That's all for now.

Back from Destin!

What a great vacation! We had so much fun. Beach time was heaven, I have never sat around so much and done nothing in my life. Had fun eating what I wanted. I about pooped my pants when I got on the scale Saturday. That bitch said that I had gained 10 pounds!! Holy crap cakes!! I talked myself off the roof, and calmed down. I have lost six already so I am fine with it. This has been the first time I have ever felt comfortable in a swim suit. I was very proud of how I looked. I need to keep up the good work. Vacations are a MUST!! Where are you going this year?

Oh I had a pina colada for you!

Destin time is almost here!

I am so excited! I can't believe the beach is in my future! Assuming of course that we don't kill each other on the way down there. 16 hours in the car with 1 crabby husband and two teenage daughters is not the ideal way to travel. But, I will survive. I plan on sitting on the beach and soaking up the rays when I get there. Thank goodness the oil spill has spared Destin. I feel bad for the other places hit hard. BP SUCKS!!! I am going to drink copious amounts of MGD 64(gotta watch those calories). Weighing in this morning at 179, freaking bitchin! From 230 to 179? I guess I can do anything. I wonder what else I can do? President of the United States maybe??

Hubby is loving the new me, he said, " I haven't seen your pelvic bones since you were a teenager". A compliment or insult? I am going with a compliment, lol!

That's all for now.
Peace out..

178 this morning! The Edgar suit...

I can't believe that I am actually doing it this time! My focus has been on eating good, primarily. Excercise at this point is not as important to me right now. I am also contiplating the reasons and why fors of how I got here in the first place. My body has been changing almost on a daily basis. You know the movie Men in Black? Remember the scene were the alien lands on the farm and "wears" the Edgar suit? That's how I have been feeling....it is so wierd to see and feel yourself and it doesn't feel like the "you" that you have known for so long. It makes me feel alien to myself. I know it will be a matter of time before I am comfortable in my own skin, but I will take that over being the fattest person in the room.

I will continue to monitor food intake. Making smart food choices is easier than feeling fat and uncomfortable...

181.6

Not a bad wiegh in #. My mini goal is to be below 180 before vacation next month. I know I can if try hard enought. I need to watch my caloric intake much more. EXCERCISE! I would like to plan something physical for outdoors this long weekend, maybe biking?? I have been wanting to ride for awhile now, so maybe I can get the hubby to go with me.

Nothing much has been going on, the same stressors are there as per usual. My hubby still isn't working. And things with other family members are not going so well. That's why our vacation is a necessity (is that tax deductible).

To post or not to post..

I have been truly sucking at posting on this blog. My weight is staying at maintain at this point. I have been having some internal struggles. I am having a hard time dealing with the weight loss. I keep looking in the mirror wondering who in the hell is that bitch? I can't believe I bought a size 12 pants. I have worked hard to loose some of the flab and now I am nervous to loose the rest? Seriously, that is messed up. I am going to try much harder to kick start it back up. I have been doing Yoga fairly consistantly but I know I need to hit the gym too.

I am loving the sunshine.

I have been so greatful for the warm weather and the sunshine. I have been feeling all happy and in a great mood lately. Things always seem so much better when you can feel the sun on your face.

Weight loss is going very well. I have been eating right and excercising regularly. I am loving my new WII fit. I am hoping to drop another pants size by the end of the month. So I will do my best to stick to it.

Youth turkey hunt is coming this weekend, so I will have the house all to myself. Yeah!!!!

-40 Pounds!!!

Yesssss, me! I didn't it. Working out at the gym is paying off for sure. I am very proud of myself. I am making it to the gym around 5 days a week! Not sure how I can go from doing nothing to going to the gym 5 days a week. I know one thing for sure if I can do it ANYONE can!!

Today is mucho better!

Today is a much better day today. So hopefully it is smooth sailing. I did manage to stop by the gym on the way home from work. I was very proud of myself that I stayed for an hour which is definately a record for me. I think that going to my work gym is going to be much better for me than going to Curves. I think I need a more intense workout. I just need to figure out what to do when I am there, LOL!! Do you 15 reps and 3 sets? Do you use comfortable weight or do you do something a little heavier? I am not sure what I am doing at this point, hopefully I can find someone to help me out.

The scale reads the same but I hate her so, I am going to ignore her and trudge on as usual. That bitch gets on my nerves! She could be a little kinder sometimes.

Another crappy day

Today has started out with a giganic thud! My daughter's car (techincally mine) was broken into overnight. Apparently, someone tried to steel it so now the steering column is all jacked up. So now I will have to pay to get the car fixed because she spent her tax refund on a flat screen tv. I am super pissed about this. She has been living on her own for a year and we are still paying for her car insurance. She turned 20 earlier this month. When do kids start taking care of them selves? Never mind the fact that her dad has been laid off for a year but we are suppose to foot the bill to fix the car...

I have been doing great with working out. I have been two or 3 times a week for the past 3 weeks. My weight hasn't went down but that could be because of the strength training that I have been doing. I can definately see the change in my body and have been recieveing great feedback.

So I will keep plugging all in life as usual.

Another post finally!

The Evil Scale God was gracious and gave me a 194 this morning, yeah!!!!! My brain is in the zone (for now). I also got a notification that Groupon St. Louis was offering Curves for Women 2 months for $25, so I figured how could I go wrong? I haven't ever tried Curves but it does sound like something that I would like seems how I have a very short attention span problem. I am trying to gear it up so I can look and feel great on our trip to Destin. So I will need to figure out how much weight I will need to loose to be happy with myself... What is the magic number?? 160, 150, 140? Who knows...nothing exciting to report for Valentine's day. My hubby just got me a card and that's it. No biggie, I certainly don't need any chocolates, lol!! This is the worst winter ever, I hate the snow. Come on Spring.

That's it for this post.

Peace out!

Pic of me

I agree that the pic does not fully illustrate my weightloss but, its all I have right now.

David Honeyboy Edwards

Lifetime Achievement Grammy! Yeah!!!

Monday's suck

Monday's suck on so many levels. I have yet to think of one good thing that has come from a Monday to date. I woke up this morning and my eyes were bothering me. I thought that I could make it through the day with my contacts in, but no such luck. I had to call my hubby to bring my glasses to work.

I work at an insurance company and one of the girls that works for me had to call me over to look at a CD she found in one of our evidence boxes that was not marked with a claim number. So here I go tromping over to her computer to try and help her figure out were it goes. What is on the CD do you ask?? Pics of a car wreck with a teenage girl in it...AGH!! So horrific. I will kiss my daughters next time I see them....

Weight loss is going fine. I am hoping the scale will go down another pound by the end of the week.

Oh, I watched Julie and Julia. It was a cute movie, definitely a chick flick. Inglorious Basterds sucked. That of course, is just my opinion...and you now what they say about opinions :)

Be safe and keep it between the ditches please!!

Peace out.

It's finally Friday!!

I can't believe it 2 posts in one week!! I have been feeling pretty good this week. The weightloss thing is going fine. I am hoping that 2010 brings me more self awarness. Last year was a journey, I never have had such a roller coaster ride of feelings.

Joe lost his job in Februrary. It has been difficult but we are getting by. It's been nice to see him relax some, and not work himself to death for a change.

Joe and I went on our first ever vacation together to Clarksdale Mississippi. What a fun time! I was giving him a hard time the other day about not being romantic. He said that he was. I said well, what is your idea of romantic? Because obviously I have missed something...He said our trip to Clarksdale was romantic. Then it hit me, it is all a matter of perspective. To him that was romantic, to me it was fun. I guess I need to change my way of thinking, because..it was romantic. I guess he was right(shh.. don't tell him).

Jessi my 1st born daughter moved out on her own that same month. It made me so sad to be left with only one kid at home. I remember back to when I was a little girl that was all I wanted to be was a mommy. That has been who I am, a mommy and a wife. So that part of me is going away. I know that I am still a mother but it's different being a mommy :)

The other significant thing that happened last year was my 30 pound weightloss. I was fed up with feeling bad about how I looked. I was determined to loose it and fell good about myself while I am still was youngish...

So that is that. I am looking forward to this new year and all of what life has to offer. I am hoping that we can find some friend to hang out with. I miss having people to have fun with.

Peace out!

It's January...what the heck?

I haven't written in my blog for sooo long. I have thought about it but haven't done it because no one reads it anyway. Things have been going pretty good lately. No major catatrophes. I weighed in this morning at 198.2!! Yeah, I think I am in Onderland to stay. I have added walking up steps at work. I am going to shoot for at least 3 times a day x 50 stairs. Thats pretty good, right?

I need to stay focused on moving more and eating less. God how I love Nutella.

Peace out!